Welcome Isaiah Daniel Yost!

On Wednesday, September 28, we welcomed Isaiah into the world!

Tuesday night at about 11PM, I started having contractions. They started getting stronger and closer together, so we headed into Munson at about 2:30AM. I was only at 3cm, but they decided to keep me since my contractions were regular. I was of course up all night. At about 11AM, I was exhausted and the contractions were getting really intense, so I got the epidural. I was at 6cm about this time, so I was progressing pretty slow. I thought the more kids you had, the faster labor was! Not this time. The epidural hurt... but it was so worth it. I was able to get a few 20 minute naps in. The nurses were getting me up every few hours to go to the bathroom (I did not want a catheter!). My water finally broke (going to the bathroom) at around 4 or 5. A little before 6PM, they got me up to go and, um.... I felt his head pushing out when I sat down! I jumped up and told the nurses, and Dr, Danz was walking in the room. They got everything ready and in less than 10 minutes, he was here! I pushed just a few times through 2 contractions. I couldn't believe how fast that part went. He was born at exactly 6:00PM.

The doctor said, "wow this is a big baby!" as he was being born, Once we got him on the scale, we were all shocked... 10 pounds 5 ounces!! (10lb 4.7oz to be exact). He came out perfect. Not even a scratch. We decided to name him Isaiah Daniel. It was a name that we both had agreed on, after going through so many lists and books :)

I was so overjoyed when I heard his first cry as they placed him on my chest. I remember when Noah was born and he wasn't crying... so hearing Isaiah was overwhelming. He was so healthy and perfect. God is so good and faithful.

Isaiah has been a great baby! He has been pretty gassy and it's rough when he's fussy at nighttime. But most nights, he lets me get decent sleep. Ben has been very helpful at night... until he left go go hunting out west :) We have an appointment next week down at Devos to get his possible hernia checked out. It's a minor surgery to repair it if needed. He also got a bit of my hyperthyroid right after he was born, so we had to have his blood drawn a few times, but he's back to normal now!

I'm so thankful for the incredible blessing of Isaiah. I'm really trying to soak in these precious newborn moments! Even though I'm fairly sleep-deprived, I know these days go by so, so fast.

You are so loved, Isaiah!!

Baby Yost #4 to arrive soon!

I recently realized that I hadn't yet posted anything about Baby #4 who is due in less than 3 weeks now! Sorry baby, I promise that I love you just the same :)

We found out in early February that we were expecting again! Didn't take us long at all to get pregnant... basically first try for each kid haha! We decided that we wanted to have another after losing Noah. The first trimester was kind of rough. I was sick a lot... super tired and nauseous. Started feeling better around weeks 10-12.

Had my first ultrasound at 14 weeks, and I'm not going to lie, I was nervous. What if there was something major wrong again? I just had to keep reminding myself that God was in control and there was nothing I could do. Thankfully, our ultrasound showed a perfect baby! The 20 week ultrasound was one that I was even more nervous for. This was the one where we found out about Noah's complications. Again, a healthy baby!! And we were so excited to find out that we're having another BOY!! I was totally 50/50 on gender this time. I would have been super happy either way.

The doctors at the GT Women's Clinic have been nothing but wonderful to me. They have been compassionate and caring. They've very kindly helped me work through any worries/concerns. They're going to take extra precautions in the delivery room since I had the major blood loss last time. Other than that, everything else should be pretty routine.

I'm 37 weeks right now and feeling pretty good! I've delt with some back pain, but I've been able to manage it on my own this time. I figured out how to adjust my lower back on my own :) Sleeping is getting to be more difficult, but I know that I don't have much longer. This is my last pregnancy (I guess I should never say 100% haha) so I'm doing my best to enjoy all of the fun baby movement!

We can't wait to meet this little guy!!

Didn't get many great ultrasound photos this time, but here's the best one.

Noah's Heaven Day

3/23. Noah’s Heaven Day.

It has been one year since we said goodbye to our precious baby boy. It was a day that I will never forget… one filled with so much hurt. It was also a day that I’ve never before felt the presence of God like I did. In my deepest moments of pain, God was still there. It was like he was right there in the room with us, coming to take Noah home, and also to carry us when we were barely able to stand.

Along with the moment the doctor told us that he was gone, I distinctly remember what I felt like leaving his hospital room. When it was time to go, I just had to walk away. I felt like I was leaving my child forever, even though I knew that he was in Heaven. It was like a tidal wave of grief hitting me, and I’ll never forget how that felt. I sobbed the whole way to the car… barely able to put one foot in front of the other.  It hurt… a lot.

Thankfully, my savior walks on water. He’s the ultimate lifeguard, and he rescued me from drowning in grief. When that tidal wave hit me, he was there. He’s helped heal my broken heart. Since I’ve began working through the grief of losing Noah, each day has gotten a little bit better. The waves still come, but they’re not quite as intense. I’ve learned how to cope, and my dependence on Jesus has grown even stronger. When I miss Noah, I can picture him in Heaven with Jesus, and that is the most amazing image. We will be reunited one day, and what a glorious day that will be!

The lyrics to this song perfectly portray how I’ve felt dealing with grief, and bring me so much comfort.

You call me out upon the waters

The great unknown where feet may fail

And there I find you in the mystery

In oceans deep, my faith will stand

And I will call upon your name

And keep my eyes above the waves

When oceans rise, my soul will rest in your embrace

For I am yours, and you are mine

Your grace abounds in deepest waters

Your sovereign hand will be my guide

Where feet my fail and fear surrounds me

You’ve never failed, and you won’t stop now

So I will call upon your name

And keep my eyes above the waves

When oceans rise, my soul will rest in your embrace

For I am yours, and you are mine

Spirit lead me where my trust is without boarders

Let me walk upon the waters, wherever you would call me

Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander

And my faith will be made stronger in the presence of my Savior

I will call upon your name

And keep my eyes above the waves

My soul will rest in your embrace

For I am yours, and you are mine

-Oceans, Hillsong United

So very thankful that I am His, and He is mine. Without Jesus, what hope do we have? We are now just 2 days away from Good Friday. Jesus willingly died on the cross to pay for our sins so that we can have eternal life with him. 3 days later, he rose and showed us that he truly is the Son of God. It's a free gift for every one of us undeserving sinners, we just have to accept it by asking Jesus into our lives. The gospel is the most freeing story ever written- God's love is available to each one of us. I, for one, am thankful beyond words for the sacrifice he made so I can enjoy eternal life with him, and so I can be reunited with our precious baby boy again one day. Happy Heaven Day, Noah. I love you forever <3.